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Monday, February 13th, 2006
11:08 pm	an actual deep post? So I sat down and read some of Ayn Rand's writings and theory today and learned a bit about her philosophy of Objectivism. Her theory is one based upon the importance of the individual and his potential. It's a theory based around a sort of "make yourself happy" ideal. Growing up sans religion per se, this was actually the philosophy I developed also. People are awesome, we are capable of acheiving so much; as long as you're not hurting anybody, make yourself happy. Then came Christianity. It has been a long, slow crawl for me to call myself a Christian. I still wrestle with all kinds of issues trying to resolve the beliefs I found for myself with the ones I'm trying to adopt as a Christian. One of these issues I began thinking about was the different concepts of humanity held within both of these belief systems. Objectivism kind of advocates worshipping humanity with no real regard for deity. Christianity is entirely centered around the exaltation of God and the abasement of man. I guess this posture of self-abasement is one that is really hard for me because... well, because I like myself a lot. Not in a gross, egotistical way but I think it makes sense to design yourself to be someone you like. To consider myself unworthy and inherently evil is an entirely alien concept to me. I guess I really don't know how to resolve these conflicting ideals. I think maybe I fall somewhere in the middle. I dunno. I just wanted to write about it. Unrelatedly, I have really been confronted with some of my character flaws lately and I am grossed out! I have recognized this jealous streak and it makes me feel kinda dumb. I think it's an illogical emotion but it's there all the same. I dunno. Maybe that's the only one that's jumpin' out right now. But I need to grow up. I guess that's all for now. Current Mood: sdvsdvg Current Music: sdfgsdfg (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
10:54 pm	If only fools are kind... then I guess it is wise to be cruel. It's been quite some time since I've updated. It seems like a whole lot has transpired in my life as of late but actually, I suppose not much has happened at all. That was a bit oxymoronic but oh well. So I'm writing the exact same thing as my friend Matt, but a week later. I feel like I turned around and have become something I'm completely not. I've compromised myself in so many ways as of late... and the sad thing is, it has all been entirely self-imposed. You know, there was a time when I was patently opposed to alcohol. I wouldn't drink a sip and no one could tell me I ever would. I didn't hang out with people who drank and I knew its side effects firsthand. I lived with someone and neither of us knew each other because of alcohol. And now, here I am. I drink 4 days a week, get trashed, abuse friendships, and generally make an ass of myself. Maybe not to some, but to me because I know that I am so capable of better. I'm not looking down on drinkers now, I'm looking down on myself for not drinking more resonsibly. Also, there was a time when I made it a point not to immerse myself in the whole gay (sub)culture because I found it silly to align one's self with others simply because you shared a sexual orientation. Now here I am acting a fool and going to gay bars all the time. It's so completely unfulfilling. It might be fun sometimes, but it's not fruitful. What I'm ultimately looking for, I'm probably not going to ever find there. It just seems some unneeded complication always comes up. Speaking of complications, my final big ol' qualm with myself and my actions of late is that I am becoming that gay stereotype; I am that guy who has no morals and will mess around at the drop of a dime. I'm not having random sex but still... Making out is not an introduction. It's something you're supposed to do after you've gotten to know someone and established that you care about each other, at least passingly. Sexual activity FOR ME is not supposed to be casual. I feel like I'm drifting towards something that will violate my spiritual and personal convictions and I've got to stop it before it becomes a real problem. I absolutely love my life and my friends and I don't want that to change. So I've got to make sure I make me the person I know I'm capable of being and not let immature distractions impede me. I'm really sorry to anyone that I've hurt or disappointed lately. Love. Current Mood: open Current Music: Tracy Chapman (Comment on this)
Monday, December 12th, 2005
11:24 pm	Boomchakalocka So. It's been a looooong-ass week. Daniel Bass got slapped with the sin stick. But it's ok because Pastor Shirley Caesar is on tv right now. I don't know if y'all know Pastor Shirley, but she is about 5 feet tall, 60+ yrs. old, and she always has a crazy weave. She makes me laugh so hard and it makes my whole life ok. I have one final tomorrow and I ain't scurred. It's about bed time though yo. p.s. V-Card is all gone. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Shirley! (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, December 11th, 2005
9:59 pm	kisses add Jessica, Paul, Heather. Current Music: Out Tonight - Mimi (Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
10:20 am	I love my life! You know what I like? People who like to be happy! I feel like there are some folks out there who don't even like being happy. Get your laugh on, yo. It feels mighty good. So if you're a singer, can we just talk briefly about Whitney Houston's blend, tone, and amazing head voice circa late 80s, early 90s? There's nobody better. For real. Um, life updates... I have a major! I am now a religous studies major with a mnor in Spanish. Boom. I no longer feel like a great big failure at life. Hung out with Matt last night. Always fun. His friend Jon/John s hella cute. We went to Lenox to get some Great American Cookies and to do a little stalking and shopping. Actually, I just got totally bored updating. ttyl! Current Mood: great Current Music: Feels So Good - Whit (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 31st, 2005
9:28 am	birfday list this fat ho should come home... this one too... BeBe & CeCe Sherpa clogs, yo. Don't hate. Moses Mr. Gael, mmhmm Frauline Maria Jesus Current Mood: my thumb hurts Current Music: James Taylor (Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
10:03 am	pish You think you're musically diverse? I have James Taylor's "Gone To Carolina In My Mind", Seal's "Crazy", and the Dixie Chicks' "I Can Love You Better" stuck in my head. I have an ugly red scratch on my nose from where Cliff threw kitty on my face. I fucking hate kitty's ass. Meanwhile, we register for next semester this week and I still don't have a major. Yeah, third year, no major. Fuck me in the ear. Oh well. At least I look cute today. My mama made cupcakes for her class. Hopefully one grubby little kid won't want one and I can eat that sucker. Love love love. Current Mood: grrreat Current Music: Seal's greatest hits (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 5th, 2005
10:56 am	word of the day? Flippant. I don't give a damn. Can I explain something to you? I fucking hate gas stations. Not even because that shit's so expensive; clearly I can find a little tenderness in my heart for a state whose lives got blown away. However, this prepay bullshit bugs the tarnation out of me. Oh yes, the tarnation. There was once a blissful time when you could push the button that said you were going to pay inside, fill up, and THEN motherfucking pay. No. Not any longer. Now you have to give the crusty motherfucker 30 bucks and then pump your gas. I know good and well 30 will not even fill up my tank. However, I'll be damned if I'm going to give them 35 and my tank only needs 34.30. I am a stingy motherfucker and I am keeping my raggedy 70 cents. Yes, yes I am. I am always testing the gas station by pushing the pay inside button and then waiting for them to authorize me only to have the stupid ethnic motherfucker tell me on the intercom that I am at a prepay pump. Tell me where the fuck the non-prepay pump lives, asshole. That's right; there motherfucking isn't one. MEANWHILE. School is just delightful. Turns out my religion book is in the library so I can do my homework now and save 70 bucks. Boom. I have an español and a music appreciation test on the horizon. Hoorah. My amazing and loving aunt is flying me to Boston tomorrow for my birthday (though my birthday is in November). I am ecstatic. I haven't been out of Georgia in a hot minute. Yesterday Cliff and I went to Centennial Olympic Pizzark and laid in the grass for hours. It was amazing. The temperature is perfect right now. Roll down your window weather. Yay. I want a smoothie before class. A number 8, peachy something something. Great day. Peace, bitches. Current Mood: flippant Current Music: Mariah - Music Box (say some shit.) (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, September 30th, 2005
3:28 pm	list +Amy Current Mood: delighted Current Music: CeCe (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 25th, 2005
4:39 pm	list add Chris. Current Mood: swoopy Current Music: Donnie McClurkin (Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
8:48 am	Life is beautiful I want to recount a couple funny happenings from the last two days. Firstly, Jennifer, Wes, and I were at lunch yesterday, eating outside as the flies gently swarmed, and this homeless guy gets out of his seat nearby and comes over. "Can I hit y'all wit' my latest rhyme?" "Why certainly!" I reply. I was like, "Well, is it any good?" He told us the hook was good. He then proceeded to give us a little background info, you know, to set it up. After he had been prefacing for quite some time ("You know, I ain't really had nothin' to say; I just was writin' out of boredom), I was like, "Look, are you gonna talk about it or do it?" So finally he began. Wes and Jennifer and I had a hard time not laughing because it was very difficult to understand (I think the gleam from his gold front was distracting me) but he did have a good hook (Something about niggaz and how he got his money, nevermind that he's homeless). So then Wes is like, "Do you want my leftover Chinese? I'm full." And the dude goes, "Sure, I'll fuck it up. What's wrong with it?" And Wes tells him that nothing is wrong with it and goes to buy cigs. So the dude is sitting there with me and Jenn telling us he has more and better raps written. I was like, "Why don't you bring your A game on Thursday?" But no, no. He was excited about his A game and moved a seat closer to me (stealing Wes's seat) and proceeds to hit me with his A game. Finally, I finish eating and give him my leftovers too and then he asks me for a dollar and I give him one and Jennifer and I leave. Priceless. So as Jennifer and I are walking to her class, a gnat flies into my eye and I begin to bellow, as I am known to do. I don't think a gnat has flown into my eye since like elementary school so it was quite disconcerting. So I run up to Patrick screaming, "There's a bug in my eye! GET IT OUT!" So Patrick, beng the amazing person that he is sticks his finger n my eye and digs out the offending bizzug. I made a big scene but I'm telling you, it was more than I was prepared for. Whooo! SOOOOOOOOOOOO. The third and final funny thing that has happened to me in the last two days: I was leaving Panera this morning with my sliced and toasted Asiago cheese bagel, my chocolate croissant, and my lemony water and, you know how some places are assholes and the door on the left opens but the door on the right is locked? Well, I, having no clue that Panera was one such place, walked directly into the right door fully expecting it to open. It did not. I proceeded to bump right into the door and even go so far as to spill my water all over it. I could do nothing but laugh and run out. I think it is more embarrassing that I crack up when stupid stuff happens than the stupid stuff itself. It calls more attention to my idiocy. Oh well. You can quit skimming now. Have a lovely day! Current Mood: superb Current Music: Aaliyah (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
7:21 pm	Booobbbaaay! I'm not doin' this wit'chu todaaaaay! 1) Lil' Kim's new nose and new song aren't cute. At all. 2) Don't tell me you like Lauryn Hill unless you can spit some Fugees (not "Killing Me Softly") and you bought the Unplugged album. Her music is infinitely better than "That Thing". 3) My mama just took scizzors to my mohawk and I don't know if even buzzing it will fix it. 4) Jurassic Park is the jam. 5) I don't wanna do a presentation in Spanish class tomorrow. That's all. Current Mood: it's whatever Current Music: Beeeein' Bobbbby Browwwwwwn! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
9:11 pm	so... Smart people are telling me to stop kissing strangers. Somebody make me a to do list. Current Mood: heehee Current Music: I have a fever (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
2:38 pm	stuck in a rizzut? I woke up this morning at 6:30, exhausted, and I had a zit and my clothes kept not looking how I wanted them to so I went back to sleep and didn't wake up 'til 2. Missed two classes. I have this weird feeling of wanting to put my routine on the chopping block and butcher it. I want to go somewhere different with someone different and do something completely different. Not even The Preacher's Wife is doing the trick right now... I think I'm just in a mood. Current Mood: wompy Current Music: CeCe Winans - He's Concerned (Comment on this)
Monday, September 12th, 2005
9:16 am	boredom Life is good. Things make me laugh. I am at my little office job at school and I'm am bored as always but it's the ok kind of boredom, not the murderous kind. I was thinking the other day how much I've changed since I was a little kid. I used to have this extremely introverted, shy side that was engendered by my being an only child. I could play in my yard all by myself for hours. I would flail about and play all kinds of retarded games by myself and never care who was driving by. I could sit and read forever and ever. Nowadays I like to be around people at all times almost. It's strange. And I've also been thinking how annoying it is that we can't pick who we are and aren't attracted to. There are perfectly delightful and good-looking people who I could date but those aren't the ones I'm looking for. The ones I dig don't make half as much sense. But even then, it's more of a "I think you're cute" as opposed to a, "Damn, we need to be together." This Thursday Lizz Wright is gonna be at Borders. I am excited beyond belief. I can't remember the last artist I saw who I was really into their music. I keep getting dragged to pop concerts and hardcore shows and I have been completely jazzyfonkysoulless. Dagnabit. So here's my chance to enjoy a little música. Um... I guess I don't really have anything to say. Y'all have a lovely day. Current Mood: thinky Current Music: Aretha on the Luther tribute (Comment on this)
Monday, September 5th, 2005
1:55 pm	oh yeah... Add Lindsay aka Rombie to the makeout list. (Comment on this)
11:22 am	Good morning You know it's funny these days how a lot of folks look down on you for believing in God. The youth is so disenfranchised and so disconnected that they're disavowing the possibility of letting their collective guard down. I think people are really scared nowadays and it's easy to make God a scapegoat, especially when his earthly representatives mess so much up. The fact is, God is not some objective force who is going to fix all your problems before they start. God is a decision, an active and recurring decision. You have to choose on a daily basis to act right and love the people around you. God is not the threat of hell but the reason to try to effect heaven on earth. I can't quote a whole bunch of scripture and I don't know all the Hindu gods and I surely can't say the prayers of Muslims, but I know good and well that a hug makes me feel good and loved. I'm not going to argue with anyone who doesn't believe in God; that's certainly your prerogative. But don't try to tell me Love's not real and don't go through your life like a little porcupine pokin' people who try to get close to you because you're scared to connect with someone. Be more brave and mature than that. In other news, here are my life goals: learn Spanish even more fluently and then travel Latin America and maybe Spain. make a cd. write a book. get me a baby from somewhere! learn to make blackberry cobbler. make somebody somwhere more happy than anybody else ever has... I dunno, I just wrote all this because I feel like there are people who are walking through life without any hope of anything good ever happening to them. I wanna make sure I'm not one of those folks... Current Mood: optimistic Current Music: BeBe Winans - live (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 28th, 2005
10:37 pm	Get in line, I'm smackin' hoes. I am in a foul fucking mood. Wanna hear it? Here it go. I will forever and ever be eternally all alone and unloved. This is kind of disheartening. I am sick to death of trying to make this Christianity thing work. I was much happier being a heathen and loving on boys. Everywhere I've gone lately has been lacking in air-conditioning. I've been sweating. Ugh. I miss Marielle. I feel like I'm running out of money. I need to take out my contacts and brush my teeth. I still haven't got a goddamn major. Also, if I hear ONE more motherfucker say, "I don't agree with homosexuality but I still love you," I will pluck out a goddamn eyeball. Of theirs. I don't give a hot damn what the fuck you think. Your agreement means less than nothing to me. And you smell bad. And I meant "his or her" back there because pronoun/antecedent agreement is important even when we're peeved. I don't want to se any happy people at all tomorrow. And I definitely don't want to go into the Office of Undergrad. Studies and work tomorrow morning at 8:30. And I just ate a ton of food and now I feel like a goddamn cow. Moo, bitches. Fuck the world. p.s. Don't try to say anything nice to me. Current Mood: foul Current Music: Whitney live (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 14th, 2005
1:54 am	Obligatory drunk pizzost So basically I worked from dawn until dusk. Hated that but made $125 or so. Went to Steph's house. Called my entire phonebook out of sheer boredom. Allison invited us to Brandon Barker's b-day celebración. Went. Drank rum and cizzoke and goldschlager. Got a wee bit drunk. Talked to Matt the mountain man and loved him. Got beat up by Stephen Lemons. Steph drove us to her house. I drizzove to my house. I am still drizzunk. I'm gonna go to bed and try to read and see if that works out. Good night, dear folks. p.s. Add Mitchell to the makeout list. Current Mood: sleepy as a mofo Current Music: Stevie Wonder - Superstitious (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
8:36 am	smooch list Add Jennifer, Jennifer, Cliff, Patrick, and James. Basically 20 year olds should not be playing spin the bottle. Current Mood: hunged over, sleep? Current Music: Whit and Deb. Cox - Same Script, Different Cast (4 Comments |Comment on this)